day 84

i leave for college tomorrow !! AHH

today my mom and i drove all over town doing a bunch of things on my “to do before i leave” list, which was mostly just going to my favorite local restaurants one more time before i go. i really didn’t think i’d get to go to any of them before i left, but to my happy surprise we ended up checking off almost every restaurant on the list! yay!

this morning we went to one of my favorite açai bowl places for breakfast. next we went to the beach so i could to say ‘goodbye for now’ to the atlantic ocean, because i will be relatively close to the gulf of mexico. then we went to my favorite beachside burrito place for lunch, and after we headed for my followup appointment for my wisdom teeth.

at the followup appointment, the nurse said that i’m healing nicely and everything looks good! whew! i also do not have to continue taking the antibiotic that makes me extremely nauseous! WHEW!

next i went to say goodbye to my grandpa and uncle. tomorrow i will say goodbye to my other grandpa & grandma when we drop dusty (my dog) off at their house for them to kindly watch him while my parents help me get settled in tallahassee.

thank goodness for a fun day with my momma. now time to finish packing up and enjoy my last night at home for a while.

i’m definitely planning to come home for thanksgiving & Christmas break, and i also might come home sometime in october because we get a random day off somewhere within that month. my parents & other family members are coming up for the FSU v. NSCU game on 9/28 so i’ll see them soon! i’m gonna miss dusty sooo much hopefully my mom can bring him if she comes to visit!

~ t-minus 1 day ~

excited & scared, ^̮^

happy & sad. ◔̯◔

-holz (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

Ephesians 2:14 – “For he is our peace.”

✧゚・: * day 69

i had a great trip to the keys!!

i haven’t posted on here in a while, but i have been keeping track of the highlight of each day since the start of our key west trip so i’m gonna share those here!!

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july 30 – swimming and laughing in the hotel pool with my friend Asia

july 31 – getting açai bowls @ tropical vibes in key west, and working out in the hotel fitness center with Asia & my dad

august 1st – scootering around key west with Asia, & my mom and dad

august 2nd – walking the mile loop around our hotel before we left for the 9 hour drive home

august 3rd – making açai bowls at home and cleaning our cars with my dad

august 4th – having fun at Asia’s going away party

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↯ SOME PICS ↯

i’m back now (ღ˘⌣˘ღ)

-holz *:・゚✧

day43 (2befree)

I remember the very first time I left my dog, then young puppy, for more than a few hours when my family and I went on a summer vacation in 2012.

I missed him on the trip so much that my heart physically hurt, and I cried while we were on vacation, obsessing over how much I missed him. On the plane ride home, I even edited a very dramatic video slideshow with photos of him on my iPad 2. I missed out on the trip I was blessed to be taken on by fixating on the thing, (or in this case, animal), I missed about home, even though we were only gone for about 1 week.

I can rationally anticipate some challenging times in my transition to college life, but I can pretty much guarantee you I won’t be making video slideshows demonstrating how much I’ll miss home.

Instead of dwelling on the things I’ll miss about home like I did on that vacation in 2012, I will strive to live in/enjoy the present. I have so many things to be excited about at college, like a huge campus to explore, new friendships, and academic challenges I am ready to face.

I feel a lot more excited about college now that I’ve attended orientation. It seems significantly less scary and strikingly more exciting 😀

& I hope that my excitement continues to grow and offset the sad things about moving on from this era of my life, like how much I’ll miss home, my precious dog, and every wonderful thing I’ve ever known in the small town in which I have lived in my whole life thus far.

i am ready

2bfree

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~this post is dedicated to my dog dusty🐶💕~

thankyouforreadingg ✨

-holz

day 40

i’m on my way to college orientation!!

it’s so weird that i’m actually gonna be starting college soon and everything will be different. it’s not just an idea or an obscure future plan anymore, it’s actually happening.

i have also learned some interesting facts in the past week,

did you know that:

-Koalas are actually marsupials, not bears.

-The past participle of “shear” is “shorn.” (ex/ “see sheep being shorn”)

-Stranger Things 3 is REALLLLY GOOOD

?

#facts

i hope u smile today ☺️

-holz

day 30

(ah)

i feel so much pressure for these blog posts to be “good.” it’s scary to do something genuine and honest because it hurts more if you receive criticism for it. sometimes it can be easier to do things that are less ‘real’ and less important to you. i have decided that i am going to stick to my original intentions for creating this website, which was to make a little place for me to just write/create whatever the heck i want.

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so

today, i went to the beach,

and i went swimming in my clothes,

and i played with the younger girls, laughed with the older girls, danced with all the girls on stage.

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tomorrow is my absolute last time dancing with my team.

it will never be the same again. oof.

that’s a lot to swallow.

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i’m getting my hair cut on saturday.

</–holz3->

day 27 feelin’ like heaven

woooo hoooo annnd im back with another blog post coming at you live from fort lauderdale florida. today was the “beginning to the end” so to speak. Today was the first day of my last ever nationals dance competition. #graduatedsenior 😎

i am so happy with the performances i gave on both of my solos today and could really care less about the letters on the medals i received (names of different score placements). i just did the best i could and i am so proud of myself for that.

^^ this whole mindset here really ties into my day 16 post, in which i went off about how life is:

[In life] No one is going to give you compliments all the time. It’s up to YOU to develop your OWN guidelines by which to judge yourself … YOU have to give yourself YOUR OWN praise, based on whether you have met the criteria you established for yourself, because no one will praise you. PRAISE YOURSELF when you deserve it …

— Me 11 days ago

with that being said….

YAY ME!!!!!!

Also I think I may have messed up my days numbering somewhere when i missed some days……

ehhh

-holz !

*(dO excuse me for quoting myself in this post kind madame/sir, i simply am quite in love with the above block of text that I wrote 11 days ago)

**EDIT: i completely DID mess up the days so i went back and fixed it. i only messed up yesterday, which was actually day 26, not 24, as I had originally stated. so, THAT MEANS that today is day 27 of my blog posts. whew. glad i fixed that.