day 4’s a little sore ~

today was DRESS REHEARSAL for my last ever dance recital.

I’ll probably be back in subsequent years to help out backstage, but it was my last dress rehearsal as a dancer at my studio. it hasn’t really sunken in yet that i’m almost done with dance life as i know it, it just doesn’t really feel REAL ya’know?

I don’t know if i’m accepting it or if i’m just in denial. 🤔

I spent basically all day there (9-5:30). it was a 35 minute drive, and that doesn’t sound like very much but it felt reallllly longggg because it wasn’t just highway driving, it was through a bunch of backroads. and i was alone. literally drove down 3 roads until they dead ended. i just kept driving and turning and driving until i had to turn again. love that.

this coming week, i hope that i can:::

-hangout with my friends

-have the motivation to study for physics and act upon that motivation by actually studying

-go to Cocoa Beach and possibly Orlando

i am ~ sore ~ but i have #recital2k19 tmr so gotta push through!!!!

ok i’m just gonna end this post here bc i feel like i’m rambling. ✌️

until tomorrow !! ‘, >


day 3 ~ wasn’t free

i have spent a lOt of money in the past 24 hours.

–> first,

i FINALLY bought Final Cut Pro X last night!!!! *girlish squeals*

i have wanted Final Cut Pro for around 3 years now, and earlier this year i decided that I would buy it with my graduation money. I finally brought myself to spend the $300 on it last night. I could swear that 3 years ago it was only $199 tho?? 🤔 oh well !!!!

–> second,

i bought haley’s new merch today!!! i got the pham friday lavender hoodie in two sizes. my yellow phamily hoodie is a medium and its a tad big on me, so i initially ordered the small. then i freaked out that it would be too small and that by the time i would realize it, the hoodies would be sold out and i couldn’t order a medium. HOPEFULLY i will be able to return one of them!!

–> third,

{this is just Exciting NewsTM}


more info on that later 😙

thankz 4 reading day 3

i am proud of myself for actually doing a blog post for THREE Days in a ROW NOW

until tomorrow,

Holz xx

i’m back — day 2 !!

i am so proud of myself for coming back to this blog for the second day in a row.

what an accomplishment.


– ate lunch with my pop-pop

– wrote 46 thank you notes

– went swimming in my lovely pool w/ mi padre

those are the main highlights.

I spent several hours writing those thank you notes and I’m glad to be done with them. It’s “one less thing to worry about, one less thing to worry abou-out.” (-hamilton). i really appreciate all the graduation gifts i’ve received and i am blessed to have the opportunity to thank everyone who so generously sent/gave me something. thankyou<3

TOMORROW the main event otd is to…

– go to my cousin’s graduation party

it’s about a 2 hr drive each way and we’re going to have 5 people in the car so it will be a little crammed, but hey, we’ll make some memories out of it!!

i feel like i need a fun summer-y sign off thing for all my blog posts from now on …. i will have to think about that. it will give me a reason to come back tmr haha

until tomorrow,


blog kick-off party

This is probably the third or fourth time I’ve tried to start and keep up with a blog. I always end up forgetting about it, putting posts off, and before I know it it’s been 3 years since I put up a blog post, and there were only 2 posts to begin with. It’s sad, really. Acknowledging my previous defeats, and knowing how easily I forget about my website, I am actually REALLY going to try to keep up with it this summer.

Speaking of, now that it’s #summer i can devote my time to actually maintaining and KEEPING UP WITH a blog. I apparently need to learn something from the Kardashians.

Here we go. This first post is just a little kick-off to my blog, celebrating my newfound passion for this website, and the desire to make progress towards one’s goals.




Hurricanes: The Magic Behind the Storm

I may be one of the only people you’ll ever meet who gets excited when I hear that a Hurricane is lingering just off shore my coastal Florida town. I’m here to tell you some of the ways you can put a positive twist on storm-related annoyances that most people overlook.

First, I must establish that I do not, will not and am not (an) advocate (of) death, destruction, flooding, suffering of any kind or disruption of one’s daily life for more than 2 weeks as a result of the storm. I simply enjoy any sort of change from day-to-day life, which can get quite boring.


I love going to to grocery store and seeing all the waters/ various other hurricane related items completely sold out. I love digging out all the candles, lanterns, batteries and other supplies and making a big pile on the dining room table. I love being obsessive and charging every single electronic device I own, from my 2008 DS to my phone, along with several portable chargers, (It puts my slight OCD to good use.) I love watching, um, I mean HELPING, my dad cut down branches off of trees, clean the gutters from the roof, haul the shutters around the house and put them up, all with a sense of possible impending doom. (An exciting twist to the average Floridian’s day!)

The thing I love most about preparation is when all your preparation pays off. Like when the power goes out but it’s okay because you already planned out how to best utilize this exciting and rare time. Or when a tree branch blows up against your shutters and you’re so thankful you spent hours of time and energy putting them up.

Losing Power

I look forward to the power going out for a reasonable amount of time. It doesn’t happen very often, (hopefully), so I have to take advantage of this limited time. This is the reason that most people don’t understand. Why would I want to lose power?

When the power goes out, we get to experience what life was like in the old days before Willis Carrier invented air conditioning. I am always so grateful for air conditioning when it goes out because I forget how amazing it is. It is so simple to take for granted.

I also enjoy being in a dark house during the day. With all the shutters up, I get to experience my own home from a new perspective that day-to-day activity does not provide. This effect is more dramatic if it is cloudy outside as well, which is in itself a wonderful change from the blaring sun.

While a newfound appreciation is nice, feeling the wind blow through the open windows of our house is an unparalleled experience. It feels like I’m outside and inside at the same time. Another small detail that I enjoy is the feel of warm floor tiles, which are otherwise cool from air conditioning.

In the last hurricane, we had to put a towel on the floor to soak up the stored condensation leaking from the bottom of our refrigerator. I still don’t really understand how this happened, but hey, I’m no refrigerator mechanic. It drove my mom crazy but I thought it was interesting.

One annoying thing about losing power is not having clocks on the microwave and oven. This was something that I was strangely agitated over when we lost power during Hurricane Matthew. My usual “reference clocks” were simply blank screens.

When the power comes back on we have a newfound appreciation for not only air conditioning, but refrigeration, the feel of a cold tile floor, the clocks on the stove/microwave, the ability to use wall outlets again, and more. The air is also cleaner and fresher when the power comes back on for us to enjoy.

In all, it really isn’t as bad as it seems to lose power, and can give us a greater appreciation for everything may take for granted.

But wait…

….. It is only fun to lose power during a hurricane though.

If I lost all power due to any other circumstance than a natural disaster I would be VERY ANGRY.


There’s something magical about hurricanes, (again, NOT category 5 destroys-everything-floods-the-state-and-kills-people kind of hurricanes, the oh-look-its-windy-outside-a-tree-branch-just-feel—here’s-8-days-off-of-school kind.)

Anyway, that was a short summation of my stance on hurricanes.

Check back next week for the secrets behind the Pumpkin Spice craze!