day 52 ~ no more blue

my nails aren’t blue anymore!

i had blue acrylic nails for 16 days. 8 days in, i got my nail caught on a door frame, which ripped the acrylic nail off of my left index finger. there is now a deep tear in my real nail about 0.5cm long. (i measured). each day, all i can do is sit and wait for the pain to subside little by little as time passes on. it still hurts to put pressure on it, but today typing with all 10 fingers is now manageable. it is slowly healing.

when my dad recently found this blog, he had a suggestion for me. “include pictures in your posts,” he said.

so dad, here are some pictures of my nail and its healing process thus far:

**you may want to skip over these pictures if you are sensitive to blood/gross-looking things


although my nails looked sooooo pretty when i first got them, it didn’t take much for one to become painful, sore and ugly. i didn’t even do anything crazy to cause it to rip off. i’ve learned that sometimes, nails just tear. (i never would have anticipated learning that life lesson this summer!)

my nails are like a family. when one person is hurting, all the other family members have to step up to take care of the hurting person. in the case of my nails, the other 9 have to do more work to allow my hurt finger time to heal and recover.

i hope that this little story is in some way inspiring to you. each day, we see so many images & hear so many messages that it can be hard to take a break from all the distractions that jump out at us everyday. you have permission to take time off from whatever is bogging you down lately and just be.

like my little broken nail, you deserve rest, even if you didn’t get physically torn in half like it did.

i hope you have a healing day,

~thank you for reading~

-Holz ❤

*random nail update, (RNU) ~ today i got white gel nails, expect for the one that ripped. my nail tech also removed the little blue stump of acrylic that remained on that finger.

day43 (2befree)

I remember the very first time I left my dog, then young puppy, for more than a few hours when my family and I went on a summer vacation in 2012.

I missed him on the trip so much that my heart physically hurt, and I cried while we were on vacation, obsessing over how much I missed him. On the plane ride home, I even edited a very dramatic video slideshow with photos of him on my iPad 2. I missed out on the trip I was blessed to be taken on by fixating on the thing, (or in this case, animal), I missed about home, even though we were only gone for about 1 week.

I can rationally anticipate some challenging times in my transition to college life, but I can pretty much guarantee you I won’t be making video slideshows demonstrating how much I’ll miss home.

Instead of dwelling on the things I’ll miss about home like I did on that vacation in 2012, I will strive to live in/enjoy the present. I have so many things to be excited about at college, like a huge campus to explore, new friendships, and academic challenges I am ready to face.

I feel a lot more excited about college now that I’ve attended orientation. It seems significantly less scary and strikingly more exciting 😀

& I hope that my excitement continues to grow and offset the sad things about moving on from this era of my life, like how much I’ll miss home, my precious dog, and every wonderful thing I’ve ever known in the small town in which I have lived in my whole life thus far.

i am ready



~this post is dedicated to my dog dusty🐶💕~

thankyouforreadingg ✨


day 40

i’m on my way to college orientation!!

it’s so weird that i’m actually gonna be starting college soon and everything will be different. it’s not just an idea or an obscure future plan anymore, it’s actually happening.

i have also learned some interesting facts in the past week,

did you know that:

-Koalas are actually marsupials, not bears.

-The past participle of “shear” is “shorn.” (ex/ “see sheep being shorn”)

-Stranger Things 3 is REALLLLY GOOOD



i hope u smile today ☺️